Heart broken though, hopeful

I do not understand myself nor do I understand those feelings that destruct me as days goes by
Why I am still hoping and crying for something that that has been made clear to me?
Am I blind or deaf not to hear and see that those moments are just ephemeral?
Am I heartless not to feel the pain to overwhelms my soul every time that thirty words are spit on me?

Love, love love
How can I still love someone that does not love me?
How can I be oblivious to people who care about me?
Why do I put myself this down for someone who does not understand what I am going through?
My friends have warmed yet, I do not see that love is destructing me

Love, love, love
We women cry for love but, we do not understand that it destructs us
It burns our heart as the fire burns a forest
It internally consumes us and leave us empty
It takes away our joy of life and turns us into demon

Love, love, love
Beggars of love, why don't you start loving yourself now?
Why do not still not understand there is not true love?
Why do you sacrifice your joy for someone who careless about you?
Open your eyes and face reality.

Love, love, love
Chasing love day by day
Destructed yet wanting more
Betrayed yet trustful and hopeful

Oh love, oh love,oh love
You cannot drive my anymore
Though I can't control my nature, I have opened my eyes
I can resist that wrong wind of yours, I see you through another window now
You were the king of my heart but now, you nobody to my eyes
I am no longer your servant